Needed Adjustments

It’s been too long since I’ve last written. For the last few months I have been so busy with work and church and felt, maybe it’s time I need to stop what I’m doing and look at what I’ve been doing and ask myself: Am I happy? Am I being a blessing to others? Do I feel fulfilled, like I have a purpose? I’ve been asking myself those questions recently and unfortunately, cannot admit to saying yes to all, so it boils down to needed adjustments.

In the job I’m in, I’ve been driving to work and it takes me about one hour and half to get there and sometimes that does not include parking. Then, I usually sit at my desk perusing through emails, being on the phone, writing, walking from or taking car service from point A to point B for assignments, and more. It’s been okay, but I haven’t been feeling happy. You know, the kind of feeling where as soon as you wake up at 5:30 am or 6 am and can’t wait to work or the feeling like you’re going to make a difference…that feeling just is not there. It’s been lost and I think it’s showing on my job. Boss is great, the team is wonderful, but I am not happy (and I cannot stand it!). It’s a job I really wanted and now I feel like maybe I have a better purpose to fulfill and what that is I don’t know.

Church ministry is awesome! I enjoy engaging with others. I am the Interest Care Coordinator (like the customer relations rep) for my church and assist with the Communication Department. I am part of two wonderful ministries, but I feel like I am not doing enough to minister and be a blessing to others. Sometimes, I think, what more can I do? I hate to hear when people say, “We have not done that before and we can’t afford it, so that’s not a good idea,” and sometimes I think to myself of the many possibilities if we just go out and try. I have so many ideas to bring to the table but it goes out one ear and out the other. (I don’t gamble but if I did and if I won, hypothetically speaking, I would give some of that money to help my church, then the possibilities I dreamt would come to pass. Then, I snap myself out of dreaming and bring myself back to reality and see what can be done with the limited resources my church has.)

Then there is the needed adjustment of my esteem. I have to admit, I am pretty hard on myself when it comes to describing who I am. I downplay what I’m good at and sometimes compare myself to others thinking I’m not good enough. How did I ever start thinking that way? Well, maybe when I graduated college and started my career path and the goals I set did not result in the way I desired. I often fight with God a lot, and believe when I say, it’s okay to do so, because if you consider God your friend, you start to talk with him like a true friend (even raising your voice and being opinionated). But I love God because no matter how I talk with Him, He knows what’s best for me and He treats me as such, I just have to realize I am a woman of worth.

I was listening to a pastor from this church speak about adjustments. I thought it was very fitting to get the steps I needed to take. Here’s what he said. When I need to make adjustments, I need to:

  1. Listen
  2. Embrace wise and godly wisdom
  3. Be open to making those needed adjustments

So, I’m committed to taking his advice and doing just that. How, I don’t know. If you pray, please keep me in your thoughts on these things. Never thought I’d need to make adjustments at this point but as I see it, life happens, right?

What If He’s Four Years Younger?

I recently met a guy and he’s…simply, amazing. I have a “list” of what I look for in a guy and this guy tops the chart! Compared to other guys I’ve met, befriended, “hung out” with, and occasionally dated, this guy beats the cake. Never had I imagined I would meet someone like him but I have.

So you’re wondering, what’s on your list? Well, I came up with the idea from the classic film, “The Wizard of Oz.” My thinking is he must have the traits of the three characters: the tin man, the lion and the scarecrow. He must have: (1) a heart, (2) a mind, and (3) courage. Simple, right? Well, each of those characteristics have sub-traits I look for too. For example, if he must have a heart, he should treat people with respect (older and younger) and love for God (which could mean many things like going to church, being active in ministries). If I explained everything of this list, I would be on my way to writing a novel, so I won’t bore you with that, but that’s my list.

About this guy, though. I met him at church. I never really paid attention to him until I ended up in his Bible study class. Just as the class came to a close and we were about to pray, with my bowed head and closed eyes, I heard him ask, “What’s your name and can you pray for us?” I looked up to see his “heart-melting” eyes meet mine and all I could do was respond with my name and say yes. I prayed and as I was leaving, he thanked me for the prayer and wished me a great day. There were other occasions after where he’d somehow make his way to say hello to me or compliment me on my dress or a song I sang (yes, I like to sing). I began to admire him, observing him while he led out in Bible study class or lead a program for church. He was a natural born leader and principled. If it was time to pray, you’d better have your eyes closed kind of thing, but I admired that because he’s respectful, smart and other things. Just from observing him from a distance, I realized he’s different from other men I  befriended and very loved by many people. His kind I hadn’t seen in a lot of young men in this day and age.

I began taking more interest when once I joked around my family members while waiting for lunch at church if there was any guy they could see me with. A cousin who was visiting with us for a few weeks immediately called his name and my heart leaped. Was that a sign? I also started getting bizarre invitations from members of the church to come to programs especially when he was there. Deep down, I really wanted to get to know him more. This Christmas, we texted throughout the day (I know, why don’t we just pick up the phone to talk? It’s a generational thing.) I saw him yesterday to drop off some scarves for their homeless ministry, which he was spearheading and just before I left to head home, he walked me to my car and we spoke and got to know each other a bit more. He asked what I did in my profession, I asked about his family and so forth. We hugged and for a brief moment I became sad because I wanted us to continue talking but I didn’t want to keep him for too long and he had a meeting to attend. Here’s the kicker though, he’s four years younger and I don’t know what to think. Should I overlook the age, pursue this relationship and see where it goes or should I call it quits in getting to know him and move on hoping I’ll meet someone else more my age? Your thoughts? I’m opened.

Help Find Teleka! Family Seeks Donations to Help in Search

Thank you for reading my blog post on Teleka. Ongoing efforts continue. The Patrick family has to hire a private investigator, but it’s going to cost over $3,000. Please, this Christmas, do something by giving what you can to help this family in need. They want their daughter back home, safe and alive. Can you help? Donations are being accepted at Meanwhile, please also pray for her safe return. If you’ve never prayed before, please give what you can. Thank you.

Missing Person – Please Help Find!

Please share this post and pass it along, we need others to know! This young lady (a 2013 graduate from medical school) has been missing since Thursday in the Michigan area (possibly Kalamazoo), she’s the daughter of one of my former conference ministers. Below is a message from the family.
Your urgent and fervent prayer is requested for the Patrick Family. Teleka Patrick has been reported missing since thursday night in the michigan area.An urgent plea has been put out by her sister. Please see below:

My sister, Teleka Patrick, is missing. She was last seen Thursday night around 7 PM.

Here is what I need from you:

  1. Pray like you’ve prayed before (even if you’ve never prayed before).
  2. If you have any information about her whereabouts, please call me at 347-622-2571 or call the Kalamazoo Sheriff’s dept at 269-383-8821 (option 6).
  3. Please only call me and/or the Sheriff’s dept if you have a lead.

Thanks in advance!

Teleka Patrick is the daughter of Pastor and Mrs. Matthias Patrick, former pastor and English Ministries director in the Greater New York Conference.

Kindly keep the Patrick family in prayer during this difficult time and that Teleka will be found alive and well.

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Miracle #1 – Dream Job

Miracle #1 - Dream Job

It happened in May. Since high school I told myself I wanted to work for a hospital and years later, it came true. Since May 13 I have been inducted as part of the Lutheran Family Health Centers (Brooklyn, NY) to serve as the PR Associate. How do I feel? Excited! Please keep me in thought and prayer as I lead this fantastic organization. My note for you: Don’t give up on your dreams. They DO come true.

21 Days

To enhance my spiritual life, I’ve been given an assignment, which is to take one hour of my day to spend time with God. Sounds simple enough. However, I must do this every day for 21 days. If I miss a day, I have to start all over. 

Recently, a friend dared me to do this. We’ve been discussing our lives and I realized my spiritual life is not as it should be. We even started discussing finances. That’s another area my friend has dared me to work on. 

So many things to think about in so little time. After 21 days, despite the ups and downs of sticking with the plan, let’s see what happens. 

Year of Miracles

Been awhile, I’ve been blogging. So much has happened in 2012.

My current job is going well and I’m utilizing skills I went to school for (that’s a bonus!), I am paying down on my student loans (even more of a plus!), and helping my church with its music and communication ministries. I consider 2012 the year I came back from my set backs.

As we embark on 2013, another new year, I’ll call it the “year of miracles”. I have no idea what miracles will happen, but something tells me if I believe well, it will happen. Image

Don’t laugh, but I’ve been making a resolution with God…four resolutions, in fact. They sound silly to me, but I got the nerve to talk to God about them. Whether those resolutions will be resolved, is a mystery, but I hope they’ll be resolved.

Happy Holidays to you reader, and may 2013 be your year of miracles, too.